Counting down the hours. Today at 5:00 PM so in 8 hours, I will hopefully find one or two perfect little heart beats on the ultrasound today. I am so nervous and having flash backs of that one day in the office when I was so excited about the last u/s with RE and everything just fell apart. All the dreams and hopes I had for that precious angel were gone.
Some people dont understand how we get so upset when we loose our babies at a few months but what they dont understand they moment we see two lines, we already have the babies future planned out. We already talk about our life and changes that need to be done and so forth.
I pray everyday that this is different, that we dont have to go through that grief and sorrow again. I feel like this one is different, I feel different and I know I just leave it in God's hand because he is in control.
Its kind of weird but I think I have two and have kinda had my mind wrapped around twins so if it is a singleton, I will be a little upset but I will be so happy.....
Alright, now only 7 hours and 45 minutes :)