TWINS!!!!

Our two jelly beans snuggled in.....

U/S went awesome yesterday. Even though I am only like 5 weeks and 3 days, we were able to see the flickering of the heart on both the babies. They are both great size and Dr said they are beautiful. I was speachless at first because in my head I was thinking two cribs, strollers, car seats, etc.....now I am so excited. We have waited so long to have this moment again and to be blessed with two! Words can not describe!!!!

For those families and friends that read, we are not sharing quite yet.....please keep it quiet a little longer :)

Today is the day....

Counting down the hours. Today at 5:00 PM so in 8 hours, I will hopefully find one or two perfect little heart beats on the ultrasound today. I am so nervous and having flash backs of that one day in the office when I was so excited about the last u/s with RE and everything just fell apart. All the dreams and hopes I had for that precious angel were gone.

Some people dont understand how we get so upset when we loose our babies at a few months but what they dont understand they moment we see two lines, we already have the babies future planned out. We already talk about our life and changes that need to be done and so forth.

I pray everyday that this is different, that we dont have to go through that grief and sorrow again. I feel like this one is different, I feel different and I know I just leave it in God's hand because he is in control.

Its kind of weird but I think I have two and have kinda had my mind wrapped around twins so if it is a singleton, I will be a little upset but I will be so happy.....

Alright, now only 7 hours and 45 minutes :)

ICLW

My First ICLW!

Today starts International Comment Leaving Week (ICLW), and this will be my first time participating! I'm looking forward to visiting new blogs I've never been to before, I love to follow new journeys and meet new friends.

For those of you that are new to blogging and have infertility, you may think strangers following you on a blog may be scary, I can tell you from experiences, if it wasnt for the girls that follow me and their encouragement along the way, I know I would have given up a long time ago. Having someone that knows every emotion you are having and dealing with, just means so much.

If you're visiting my blog for the first time, welcome, and thanks for stopping by!

A little about my self, I am 27, will be 28 first of May. My husband will be 27 next week. I married my wonderful husband June of 2004, we are coming up on our 5 year wedding anniversary and 3 year feritlity battle. Of course really the whole 5 yers was a battle because I came off BC as soon as we got married but did not learn about my fertility issues until 2008. I have PCOS, hypothyroid, and endo.

We started fertilty treatments beginning of 2008 and have completed several clomid cycles, 6 IUI's, and 2 IVF. We only acchieved pregnancy with both IVF. The first in 2009, we received a postive and had our weekly u/s from week 6. At week 12, last U/s with RE, they were unable to find a heartbeat. We were devistated and took a year off. Went on a wonderful vacation.

This year we decided to try IVF again, first FET we received our positive. I am currently 5 weeks pregnant, so very early and of course very scared. I believe God has control of all things and when he is ready for me to have a wonderful miracle, it will happen. I just hope he agrees this is the time and we have a heatlhy 9 months.

We find out next week if we are expecting 2 or 1 because we did put back 2 5day blast. Please follow my blog, I love friends and please leave a comment during ICLW.

Thanks for visiting again, hope you enjoy.

Results are in......

Did my blood work this morning and it was a BFP! Quote from the nurse "you are very pregnant". She stated that my levels were twice waht average and she is comfortable with not having to complete a 2nd blood test. I am scheduled next Tuesday, April 26, for our first ultrasound. We will find out then if we are having twins are just a one miracle baby. I am wanting to be so excited, I know I will be next week but now of course I am counting down till the ultrasound and just have the realization.

I did learn one thing, I have to live with my roots. I didnt know you couldnt highlight your hair if you were pregnant and I have highlight in my hair. They need to be done so bad and I actually had an apt this Thursday. I asked my Dr if it would be okay and he said "NO GO" Especially the first trimester. So, hopefully I can make it work.

The amazing process God created......

So, day of transfer our two blast looked like this......






The babies settled in my uterus next to my extremely full bladder.....






AND THE RESULTS....(Top test is 4DP5DT to make sure HCG was out of system, it was negative) the middle two are AM and PM test on 5DP5DT and the last one was taken this morning 6DP5DT and before I could sit it down it was already having a second line.....)

5DP5DT.....and I am

GOING CRAZY! I dont remember last IVF the wait being so bad. Today I thought I would be stupid and take a Dollar Store test thinking its a $1. What does it matter if I waisted it. I think there was a faint line BUT I may be making things up. You know we tend to do that. As for symptoms, I have been very fatigue and light headed, boobs are sore, cramps started yesterday, and my husband said I am being clumpsy but I am on vaginal progesterone which could cause several of those things. So, I am trying to just make it through the weekend. I know I will probably POAS everyday now because I think there was a faint line but I have read where 6DP5DT getting a faint positive. SO it may not be too soon.....


Monday Monday where are yoU!!!!!

you should be able to read my post now....

Sorry, dont know what was going on. Hopefully everyone will be able to read my post now after Ready Set Go!

Good News keeps coming.....keep it coming.....

Okay, sorry its been a bit since I have wrote. So.....egg retreival was done on Monday. Went under with about 13 follicles, they retreived 8. I have prayed for 6 so I was really happy with that number. I was in allot of pain and took the next day off work, it was allot worse then last time and I am sure it was because the difference in stimilation.

Tuesday: fertility report, out of the 8, 6 fertilized, lets plan on the 3 day transfer on Thursday.

Wednesday, still in allot of pain, went to work but it sucked.

Thursday: called to check and make sure we were still doing 3 day transfer, she stated that of the 6, 5 of them were 8 cells and looked great and they wanted to wait for day 5 to see how many blastocyst plus the percentage is better.

Friday: just ready to get Thursday over, I was finally not feeling so sore in my belly

Saturday day of transfer. I remembered my last transfer and being so painful due to my bladder about to bust. So, I decided to take it easy and not chug the water they ask you to chug. Well, 2 hours later and 5 cups of water later, my bladder was full. Once again, I was shaking and crying because I had to peepee so bad and just couldnt. Then of course my Dr and husbandy had a sence of humor and thought while she was pushing on my bladder with the ultrasound and he was opening my uterus, they would talk about water fountains and streams. NOT FUNNY! Anyways, two gorgous blasts were transfered. The report that day of the 5, only 3 were blast. The others werent far behind and they were gonig to give them a few more days to see because they would only freeze blast. I was kinda disappointed that we only had 1 but I was hoping it didnt matter. Took the day easy and Sunday for the most part.

Today: called the Dr to get report on embroyos, all three made it to blast and I now have three gorgeous frozen blast. I started crying, what a piece of mind. Little less pressure off right, lol, who am I kidding.

April 18th is the day for bloodwork. I am of course going to do my best from peeing on a stick but I just have such a good feeling and so does our Dr. I am trying to hold back because of the big posssible disappointment but I am suppose to be positive and that is what I am trying to be....positive.

Thanks everyone for keeping me in your prayers......now we just wait!!!!

Trigger day......

I went today for u/s and today was the day for trigger. on Friday we went and they scared me because there was huge blob on my left ovary and the nurse thought it was a cyst which meant that we were going to cancel the cycle (of course I have already taken about $2500 in meds) she brings the Dr in and he finds that it is a follicle, thank goodness but it was like a 19 which means I needed to trigger that day. Remind you, Jason went to IL this weekend, if we triggered on Friday we would have had retrieval on Sunday which would have not worked. After looking closer, the big blob turned out to be three follicles on top of each other and they were not large enough to have to trigger that night. Went today, several 19, 18, 16, and some small ones. I couldnt really count as he was calling out the sizes but each ovary still has a promising at least 5. Like I told Jason, I dont even care about being in double digits which would be nice but 6 would be a good number. Thats 3 transfers. Hoping we want have to worry about that but I still would like to have that peace of mind.

So, tonight was the trigger. I am fine giving my self all of the shots (FSH, low dose HSG, and even the Ganirelix) because they use insulin needles which are easy to do in the belly and you dont really notice them. But, as most of you know the trigger shot is a whole different ball game. Goes in a muscle and a pretty large needle. Jason always gives that one to me as I hold Louie and try not to think about it. This time, I had to do it and i had no clue how i was going to do that. Well, after about 5 minutes of debating what to do, I managed to suck it up and get it in my hip. I pulled back and thought I saw blood, freaked and pulled out. Of course that meant I had to put the shot back in, gave what i thought all of the shot, pulled out and guess what med still in the syringe. So, had to actually give my self the same shot three times (Are you kidding me) lol.....we all could write books couldnt we.

I now wait till Monday at 6:30 AM scheduled for the retrieval. I will know that day how many was retrieved and then usually the next day a call advising how many were successfully fertilized. I am under the weather most of the retrieval day but if I get a moment I hope to leave yall an update of how many eggs I got, pray for 5 or more! :)